Break-up FAILs
I’ve started and stopped writing this post for a couple of days now. But, I’m hoping that it will be therapeutic in a twisted kind of way.
As the @fatroll girls know, this past weekend was the type that could send anyone to a fatroll fail free-for-all. With the culmination of finals, presentations and a break-up, I was bound to eat that chocolate lava cake in my fridge. 
I lost my best friend this weekend, and it sucks. There’s really no other way to put it. Break-ups are always hard, but they’re even more difficult when its a situation neither person really wants. But, we both knew that now was just not right for either of us. Like I told Ash, Mere and Jen earlier this week, I finally learned that sometimes love just isn’t enough. It’s about timing, it’s about luck and it’s about sprinkles (no, not the cupcake Mere).
When you have to walk away from something that has been a gigantic force in your life, it’s crippling. The last two days have been nothing short of difficult. But, we all know that life sometimes gets in the way.
My only saving grace is that the chocolate lava cake (and it was half of a very small piece) has been the worst of the damage. Sure, I finished an entire plate of pad thai with the girls during our emergency fatroll lunch; and sure I ate a ton of yumminess at Fonda San Miguel during a condolence dinner with a friend; and yes, I did have two pieces of pizza last night during our final presentations for my RTF380 course; but I’ve also not eaten that whole pint of Ben & Jerry’s cookie dough sitting in my freezer.
Instead, a friend suggested I just take a spoonful and walk away. *Pat on the back*
The silver lining in all of this is that at least I don’t look to food to console me. Earlier this year, I probably would have. I would have sat on the couch and proceeded to pay an homage to Bridget Jones’s Diary (which I have yet to watch at this time). Instead, I’ve already started to hit the gym and plan on going to Town Lake later for a run. Re-focusing my energy towards active activities has been helpful.
The holidays are tough. They’re harder when you’re suffering from heartache. So here’s to hoping that these fails can be kept in check.
